Away I’ve been from this little blog but good friends and reflective months have called me back to it. I’m beginning again. I’m grateful you’re here.
Both grandmothers passed away in March. Much of the month was spent traveling for funerals, sorting belongings, absorbing the loss. Then came a pesky flu, fun design projects, and time to ponder the direction of 2015.
It’s refreshing to be back here, in this space of fellowship and restoration, although there’s not a ‘master plan’ of how the content will flow. I want to be faithful in sharing real conversations, erasing loneliness, building meaningful relationships, gathering with purpose — and encouraging you to do the same — even if the details of “how” are blurry in this moment. Because I know it’s part of my life’s calling and neglecting it wouldn’t be right.
Let’s start with what’s been pressed into my heart this past month. It might just ease your heart too…
Lately I’ve been hoping and praying for a few big, important, things in life. You too?
There’s one in particular that I’ve been hesitant to pray through. Because if I don’t ask, I won’t be disappointed. Right? That’s crummy logic.
As I fell asleep a few nights ago, thanking God and praying through my mental list I came to the one request that’s seldom brought up. In that moment it was as if God was saying, “Will you know me in this?” Oh?! My mind paused.
More questions tumbled out, “Will you go there? Will you trust me? Will you pray that? Will you watch me surprise you?”
What that surprise is I don’t know but when we pray for the things we’re scared to pray for God can show us his character. It’ll either be what I’m praying for or it’ll be knowing more of God himself which is a rich gift in itself. It might just be both.
As you go throughout your day listen to him calling, “Will you know me in this?”
When fear rises up answer, “Yes, I want to know you in this.” When doubt closes in, “Yes, I want to know you in this.” When anxiety overwhelms, “Yes, I want to know you in this.” Because God manifests himself in a multitude of ways. As healer, provider, joy bringer, as friend and if we hold certain requests and situations at arms length from God, we’ll only know him in part.
Where will you go this week that you haven’t been? What bold requests will you pray that you’ve neglected because of fear? Begin today. Ask away.
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